I was called a man of faith not too long ago, and it seemed ironic to me in the moment. Lately, faith is hard.
When I was a child, I recited my mass responses in a sing-song manner–“I believe that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” In those days, it seemed little more than a repetitive practice perpetuated by the Sisters of Mercy, nuns who struck the fear of Christ in the fourth-grade hearts of the non-participating. Some might say this kind of rote memorization is little more than manipulative programming; others might say it is training up a child in the way he should go. I’m not sure about either of those sentiments, but I have come to find the words of Psalm 27 in the granaries of my memory lately, and they have been a comfort.
It’s been a long five months. We’ve been through the ups and downs of raising a sick child and there are days when I go back to the Psalms to remind myself of the goodness of God. It is a constant effort to recall the truth, to speak it to myself even when the easiest notions of God trend more toward agnosticism or deism. It’s a constant effort to remember the power of the Gospel–that Christ is all-sufficient.
I’ve written this piece as a reminder. It’s simple, much the way my faith feels these days.
*Amber is sharing a brief Titus update at her site for those of you who are following along.